I spend a lot of time alone.
I used to be afraid of that.
Afraid I would be lonely
maybe.
I feel sad about
bonds broken over time.
Especially when
I feel like I’m the only one.
It hurts me to think back to the rejections I felt.
It hurts me to see them get married and have children
who may not even know who I was to their parents.
Those days are passed.
What I was a part of then
I am no longer a part of.
Yet it seems as though everyone else has remained.
I never knew how life would pan out.
Sometimes I feel sad about bonds broken.
Yet somehow I know
the bonds break
to strengthen the primary bond
of me with myself.
Though it’s true
it still feels sad sometimes.
I don’t want to feel lonely.
I want my people.
I have myself and I have many
people who are far.
That’s okay and I love them.
Here in my day to day
I wish life was filled with friends
the way it was when I was young.
It is for some.
I await my new friends
like the first day of school.
Vibrating with the ones who vibrate with me.
Singing our heart songs together.
As friends so often do.
Thank you for the lessons and the blessings.
I am ready for you.
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