Okay I have this idea that I will write posts about all the ‘self’ words that are a part of my journey or that I love and I’ll have a series on here called Self- .

So we shall see how that goes. I am in the depths of contemplating doubt and how it shows up in my life, particularly as self-doubt. How I sometimes… well probably way more of the time than I am consciously aware of … I don’t even get started or allow things to get up and running before feeling overrun with doubts. Especially about HOW. How is that going to happen?

But one thing I know about myself, that I feel like I forgot about until now, is that I am an investigator. Doing research makes me feel better, it helps me to establish a solid foundation upon which to do my experiments in life.

Sneaky doubt sometimes gets in before I get to the research stage and in those cases I won’t let myself research. Sometimes it creeps in when I am researching and I get to the point where I can go out into the world and have an experience but in those cases I keep researching and stay stuck in the research phase, afraid to experience the thing.

Whew.

An ode to self-doubt

Perspective shift.

Research to experience to research.

Moving through life

knowing that the ground is underneath my feet with each step.

Is it wet?

Is it soft?

Is it hot?

Anything undesired makes it feel like it is not there.

But it is.

Perspective shift.